HW: Self-Portrait in Attention

INFORMAL ESSAY:

As I gazed upon my picture of my face that some people called cute, handsome, and what my Athletic Director in high school called ugly I noticed a lot of my flaws that I notice but no one else notices. From the small acne to smalls scars and large scars. I learned when I really concentrate on the picture I noticed these things and I want to draw them but I’m not that good of artist. When I looked the picture and I pay attention to those little flaws that all I can really see. I can see now how the fact of body image and of self-confidence is a problem. Then when I look at the self-portrait I pay attention to the little things that don’t make it look like me. Like how I forgot the ears and my face shape is weird and I did my best to pay attention to the little details and forget about the big picture. Like I hadn’t shaved in a few days and I had a little scruff, so I put that in. I have high expectations of myself in everything that I do I know that I’m no artist, but I still want to set the expectation high and shoot for that goal. The relationship between the writing and paying attention is that when you don’t pay attention you tend to forget about the details and leave them out. If you have expectations to include details and set a goal for including details, you usually can achieve that goal. They only thing that those minute details can ruin is the big picture. I play football and it’s a game of inches and the details matter. And paying attention to those details is key in success in football. Our coach every day tells us to “Lock it the **** in.” The expectation is that we are paying attention and focusing on the little details and the little mistakes with technique or alignment when we are watching film and then learning from them, so then in a game we can fix them and we can be successful.

NOTES:

I noticed in the picture I drew of myself that I don’t have ears but in the pictures that I noticed that the very fine features like the scar on above my eye and the small scars from the horrible acne from middle school aren’t there. My face shape is also not my exact face mainly because I didn’t want to make it exactly it was a good caricature, but I am no artist by any means. Something that went right was me drawing the hat I was wearing and the lettering that was kind of pretty hard. Another thing that went right was the eyes and the eyebrows I had remember back to my 7^th grade art class to make sure they actually looked like eyes. I successfully transformed this perception of my face into an image by the hat that I was wearing. Something that went wrong was that forgot my ears and my face shape is wonky. I did not noticed the fact that I had no ears… I felt like this was a weird thing to be doing in an English class… especially in a college English class. I felt awkward when I was done because I was confused, and it just felt weird that we would be doing this in a college English class. If I told my parents that I did a self-portrait in English they would say we are not paying thousands of dollars for you to become an art major.